Jamelia: My violent ex could have killed me but I've forgiven him for beating me to the ground

Jamelia has revealed that she's forgiven the boyfriend who used to beat her.
The singer, 32, was regularly hit and emotionally abused during her 3-year relationship with a violent ex but refuses to let the painful memories affect her anymore.
'I'll never regret leaving my ex, but the strange thing is he and I are now friends. I've 100% forgiven him,' says Jamelia.
'I think he was stupid and cowardly for making me suffer, but if I was to hold a grudge against him for the rest of my life then I wouldn't be able to move on with my life and I'm so happy right now.'
Jamelia admits that she cut herself off from her family while with her abusive partner and would often have to act upbeat during interviews despite being 'beaten to the ground only hours earlier'.
The mum-of-two went on to marry footballer Darren Byfield but they split in 2007 and she's now happily focusing on her new position as a Loose Women panellist.
'I was only 18 when the abuse started. It was also a very successful time for me. If I had a split lip or a bruise I could conceal it with make-up or an excuse,' Jamelia tells the Daily Mirror.
'He could've killed me, of course. The scariest thing was leaving. The psychological fear is much worse than being hit.
'When I left I thought: "Oh no, he's definitely going to get me back for this," and that didn't happen. He realised that impact he'd had.'

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Malban (Turkish Delight )

Ingredients
2 cups water
½ cup cornstarch
4 cups powdered sugar
2 tablespoons rose water
Red food coloring
Large amount of powdered sugar and cornstarch

Method
● Bring ¾ cup of the water to a boil in a saucepan. Remove from heat and set aside.
● In a heavy-bottomed saucepan, dissolve cornstarch in remaining 1¼ cups water. Place pan over medium heat and gradually add the boiled water, whisking constantly, until well combined. Add 2 cups of the powdered sugar all at once, whisking constantly until sugar is dissolved. Gradually add remaining 2 cups sugar, stirring constantly for 5 minutes or until mixture is thickened and bubbly. Add rose water and few drops of red food coloring. Stir until combined.
● Mix powdered sugar and cornstarch and place half the mixture in a baking dish. Spread cooked sugar mixture in an even layer over the top. Let cool for a while, then cover with another large amount of sugar-cornstarch mixture. Let cool completely.
● Using an oiled knife, cut Malban into squares. Arrange on a plate, shaking off excess sugar and cornstarch.

Variations
● Substitute rose water with mint essence or orange blossom water, and red food coloring with green or orange
● Fold in ½ cup chopped, toasted nuts (hazelnuts or almonds) and substitute rose water with 2 teaspoons vanilla or ground mystique. Do not add food coloring.

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